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How to Not Lose Yourself in Marriage

December 17, 2016 by marnie Leave a Comment

I never thought I’d have identity issues even in the face of parenting and marriage. I know, I know. I speak the truth, though:

I never thought I would lose myself in marriage. The word is out and even the mainstream is writing about it. Oh, and apparently, this whole “losing your identity” thing has been happening for, well, since the beginning of time.

Yes, thinking I might be able to avoid the obstacle was totally naive. 

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The other day I had to pull my car over to the side of the road. I was alone, crying so hard I couldn’t concentrate on driving. Plus, I didn’t want to have this outburst at home in front of my kids and husband.

I’m stronger than that…

This particular day, loneliness enveloped my heart. The moment of total sadness hit me out of no where. The day before we celebrated Christmas, and I missed my family. I felt disconnected from people with whom I was once close. I found myself longing for the days when I felt grounded and not so lost.

You know “typical parent stuff”.

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Identity Issues Are Real in the Face of Parenting

I crept slowly into our driveway, glancing quickly in the rear view mirror to see my bloodshot eyes. Would he notice?

I didn’t want him to notice.

To see my weakness.

To think I was ungrateful for all we have in our life together.

Nearly 10 years ago we accepted one another as partners for life.

We met almost 14 years ago. I was only 25 but I knew…

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Days come and go when I wonder…

Did we speak more than a sentence to one another today?

Did we utter words about something (anything) other than our children?

Did I kiss his lips today?

Did we embrace?

How can he possibly remember who I am when I can barely recognize myself these days?

Who is this guy?

On this particular day last week he reminded me of exactly why he is my partner for life.

As I drove slowly down the small hill bringing me closer to home, making my way to the garage, I saw him. And he saw me.

Then he did a little dance as though there was no other person he wanted to see at that moment.

I made him so happy that he danced.

I laughed hard, harder than I had in some time. My eyes filled with tears. I jumped out of the car. I held him.

He asked if everything was all right.

I responded, “Now it is.”

Marriage is tough work. I never truly appreciated that fact of life.

My husband reminds me of who I am and who I want to be. What he loves about me, I love about me. What he encourages me to do in life is exactly what I want to do. He supports me. He challenges me. He loves me. My best qualities shine in his presence.

Forgetting that core, the essence of why you chose your partner happens over a lifetime. Find some way to remind yourself even if it takes a little dance to kick that reminder top of mind. Don’t forget the reasons why you chose your partner. Losing yourself in parenting is the easy part. Finding your way back is tough.

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Marnie Craycroft has been blogging since 2010. She has a masters degree in business administration and is a Montessori-trained educator. Marnie has written four parenting and early learning eBooks, authors numerous digital learning materials, hosts a parenting podcast, and runs online workshops for parents and teachers. Marnie hails from Maine where she spent summers buried in sand and winters buried in snow. She is the proud daughter of a nearly four-decade veteran of the public school systems. Marnie moved to the west coast in 1999, and currently, lives east of Seattle with her husband and three sons. Besides writing, passions include running (usually after her three children), photography, and the outdoors.
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